Kuok Ker

Fren, Stress, stress and stress in my PhD jouney that make me feel chest pain when I am jogging around our stadium. this signal make me very worry that I might... well, after the 23-12-09 and now I try out again for my morning jog before entering to work that I feel much much better, eventhough it is not totally gone but much better in terms of inhale and exhale with morning fresh air? No fresh air here perhap but ... ok, the main point here is the chest pain ok.. and it is away-away and away ok hopefully my fren.

Fren, Tahniah pada diri saja? NO , Bukan itu saja, sebab saya nak turut mengucapkan tahniah kepada kawan-kawan yang amat membantu saya khususnya pada saat saat genting dan mereka ni seperti En Ongtf dan begitu juga kepada Prof Madya Dr chair kerana berkesempatan untuk saya menghantar tesis pembetulan ke graduate school man. Tahniah pada diri ini sebenarnya cuma ingin memperkukuhkan semangat perjuangan diri si polan untuk sekian lama dan agar si polan masih berkeupayaan atau menjadi makin kuat semangat untuk perjuangan hidup yang menanti kedatangan tahun 2010 khususnya bulan Feb nanti ya! yeh yeh yeh. Paham apa tu, tak paham pun takapa lah. Si polan yang akan menjawab cabaran tu yes yes yes.

Fren, Tang Yuan - suatu jenis sajian untuk kesyukuran oleh sekian komuniti sekali dalam setahun dan ianya turut membawa maksud secara simbolik - suatu penghabisan tugasan atau tanggungjawab dengan sempurna dan seterusnya akan berusaha untuk masa akan datang. Saya mengambil iktibar bahawasanya dengan hari Tang Yuan tahun ini, rezeki si polan telah berjaya mendapat kelulusan atau "green light" untuk melepasi penyempurnaan tesis yang sekian lama diperjuangkan (9 tahunlah) keseluruhannya dalam pengajian peringkat Ph. D si polan tu. Syukur seperti Tang Yuan dan seterusnya perjalanan masih jauh lagi ke depan namun dengan kelayakan ini akan menjadikan si polan berlesen untuk memandu serta mencana tenaga terhadap anak- anak didikan si polan demi masa depan mereka yeh yeh itu saja.

Fren, Gold medal for football event after 20 years time ok! 40 gold medals as the 4th placing at the end of the SEA games , tahniah! Why not? because we still able to perform well. It is depend on how single person look at it and pass their comments ok. Personally, credits must gave to the whole contigent especiallly coaches and players as well as the official/officers too because the results were after hard work and after years of afford and sarcifices of many parties even from the players' parent too. Tahniah Malaysia Boleh. Well, 40 gold medals are the results (which everybody could see and could pass comments) but what about the afford put in to gain this results are nobody border so much ok and somehow, there are people who use to say but not doing anythings or do somethings and claim everything ha ha ha yeh yeh yeh

Fren, 3-1 ? 3-1 ! skor Malaysia team, tahniah dan Malaysia Boleh ok. But to me it recall that I needed to face 3 giants in order to cross myself to VIVA Ph D see it was different meaning to me man. Ha ha ha . Well not only this hurdle but another 3-1 again because I need to face another 3 giants in terms of working out to submit my final thesis man?? Yeh yeh yeh. 3-1 and what about final with Vietnam? On paper Malaysia Boleh and in reality must be Boleh jua ok Malaysia Football team and all the best to Malaysian. Salam Satu Malaysia, boleh kan?

Fren, Tired, tired and tired, What and Why so tired? Life, man... tired just because so many things that what we want to do and move forward needed other people or depend on third party only can move, so what do you think man? Career part, we need to depend on our superior to gain promotion or even self competencies also need some one to depend on ... so what is the meaning of individuals competency, man? Tired all these PR things. I thought that when I am competent then will... but very wrong in reality man! Family part, we need spause together to get things done at home and spause is another party who is also not easy to make her to move together to the planned direction, tired man. Relationship with our frens needed even more PR in terms of getting together with them to come out some things out of nothing and this also tiring man... Well, to me, things that I could do or committed to do are not tired to do so but in the process of completing them when it comes to deal with othe...

Fren, Cloudy weather became smillingly day, is that good or isn't it great? Definitely answer is Yes my fren, right? Well, do you know that cloudy day is alway happen to a man from day and night but the smillingly day need time to adjust and it needs to be gained from corporation from varies party which actually started with the individuals, link with the company and incorporate with the environmental factors as well. Do you understand what I am talking about? Yeh yeh yeh. Next, my question is how long could it be smillingly day perhap one, two minutes, hours, days , months or years? Who knows and who could tell me, man? Nobody could accept the parties involved who would like it to be consistently smillingly and not asking for cloudy weather in personal life, am I right? Some times perhap!or No no no yeh.

Fren, Sounds like having good life but actually there is so called my house but not my home. Look like having career but there is no recognition at all perhaps demotivated motion happended all the time. So, as the result, it was not liked what it suppostedly to be and that's reality in life ok. What is life? What is so call home? What is career?

Fren, I am very glad that you elaborate about the wonderful of EndNote but... to me End No bermaksud misi yang tak ad penghabisan sehingga mahu mampus pun masih "hang" kat sana sini and EndNote le. Sorry to say something negative and actually negative sentence or slogan is not my style or way in my life but too toooooo long "hang" in my study journey as well as my idiot life make me feel end no or endless ok. I don't mean the End Note is not good but I am jahil in computer and I am losing up self confident and self priode for nothing man... Life goes on... I baharu jumpa seorang kawan lama yang boleh saya mengeluh atau merungut kesusahan hidup serta kejahilan diri dengannya dan dia menasihati saya untuk either "Stay die or shift away" in my career part and I think it over and over and endless or end no le! yeh yeh yeh akhir kata ke mana pun sama saja Salam satu Malaysia.

Fren, Say bye bye to 11-11-09 just because of self own weaknesses and brilliant protocol in the process of correction and it is involving many parties throughout the process. Thus, it is actually out of my control in this case and that's why let see the next date or deadline in order for me to pass myself with this piece of hard work whuch already cause me for nine years time. 9 years, 9 problem and 9 self demotivated and 9 9 9 tan as the result of this saying bye bye the 11-11-09, well if you do not understand what am I talking about , it is ok and no big deal because is not you in this situation or incedent for sure right? ok yeh yeh yeh

Fren, Well, do you know what is extension to be extended and it was just because of some weakness in language and this cause some one be into extended mode in term of graduated or at this moment in the making right to go through on time to be graduated. Well, this is not new to someone as far as study juorney is concerned, because this scenario is in the common practice of local researchers or common scenario in local supervisory work and yet this is so call satu Malaysia. Satu Malaysia? memang satu Malaysia sejak tahun 1963 kan or 1957 ok? As far as the implemention and the wrongly intrepretation of the word "prihatin" means nothing could be done and this will be in Malaysia wellness comparatively right since 52 years ago man, right? Last but not least, work and life goes on no matter what happened before , now or even future as well as let us pray for our country especially for the future betterment man. Yeh yeh yeh

Fren, Correction according to the comments onlylah?! Yeh, yes so I do it! What else, tunggu apa lagi, apa tunggu lagi, right? Well, burn the night oil, using torch light, generator as well as electrical light, whatever light or oil you name it, still tan tan tan. I know myself very well, and I learn a lot throughout this journey, I realize some thimgs which are very importnat in this life but I fail to have and to do other things that equal importent in this life as well, that is what could I put it as sacrifies happened and the reality is very cruel and no fun at all. This is life man! ok Once you ask for it and you get it so you get it and take it to the end of this life, what else you aspect, man? Padan muka kau, yeh yehyeh?? ha ha ha hi hi hi

Fren, This is your seruan to your students? new applicants or whoever so? You are definitely right my fren because nowadays people do not appreciate what they have or the appreciation is not for long term but a short while only. People do not appreciated chances that given to them or even there was second chance guven as well and this is a very sad mode and this is why the word "greedy" comes in to people life or tha's why the world won't be peaceful because of human selves per se. I met a lot of people really feel wanted to slap them right at that moment just because of too greedy and they also try their best just to achieve their own goals and totally forgotten other people just struggled their life for the basic needs example: the victim of earthquake? Victims of political scandal and... orphan and name them man! Last but not least, I do appreciate whatever I have and try my best to self enrichment and not cause other party to be suffer or took away their right ...

Fren, Well, second chance given so what? Not easy man to grap the chance especially with time deadline need to hit or achieve ok! yeh yeh yeh yeh. Second chance which is not easy as people think it is? It is because of time constraint and time limited to do a lot of corrections in this piece of memories and by the time fliy like no business as the reality, make me fell one kind and stress as well, this is life man. Well, work out and work to my optimum and to my best I could, that's what I promised to me since my first day of journey in this case ok. Yeh yeh yeh.

Fren, Second change given, would you take it or left it and /or you you still very appreciate of it? Well, Ha ha ha hard to answer right? To me, personally I would like to share with you that the one experience that even oftenly happen to me man, the second chance that given is the chance that all ways I looked and no other choices man for because to me , there is never ever given first chance to get what I want or what supposedly get, you know what I means and that's why I grapped second change if given so if no second chance given then I would only say sorry : You are wrong number! hi hi hi. Fren, not every body has the first chance but usually could be given second chance should take it and feel happy of it yeh yeh yeh

Fren, After 17 semesters of journey, health was affected and the the effects of stresses are great to move a person into hell if not heed to health problems as soon or urgently. The health problems are not created just over night matter but thery were prolong and prolong of stressful life's journey with days and nights and throughout the period of years,ok man. Hell is just right in front door to those who always deny heed on health concerned and heed to the health problems would be liked taking care of own health problems by self and definietly without other party "care" to ok and if there is someone or other party (even the spause) could go along with the life journey then I would say well done and congratulation man! Last but not least, do take care of own health and keep far away from hell with heeding to contemporary issues in healthy lifestyle all the time in order to continue this life journey ok.

Fren, After the 11 Sept, I am really in the calm stage of my emotional or psychologically. After this, there will be "perjuangan hidup" again and I would work hard to complete this life mission at a time. At the same time, I wish all my muslim friends : Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri and Mohon Maaf Zahir dan Batin ok and selamat kembali untuk bertugas atau menjalani kehidupan kelak. Last but not least, there are plenty of challenges in front way and I will workout without fail until NOV, 11, 2009.

Fren, Helpful hands came to me man! Sept 11, 2009 was becoming one record in my life to myself. 1 hour waited outside the room and 2 and the half hours in the room and fren waited outside the room. Time passed like so slow and so slow in every minute counted. Over the session at 12.25pm on Friday and the feeling of relaxing really happened to me there and then ... fren was congrating me and so that I feel that there is another stage to go with another 2 months time man. Well life goes on with even more challenges man. However, I feel very very happy and statisfied myself - SS again dan inilah sejarah dalam hidup saya ok?

Perjuangan hidup yang tidak pernah akan adanya noktah namun ianya sewajarnya berperingkat- peringkat mengikut analogi or kronologi tapi adanya masa masa tertentu cuma hanya berlaku tanpa noktah, itu saja. Kenapa? Mengapa? Karma agaknya. Tarikh: 9-9-09 ke 11-9-09 dan yang mana nak berhenti sekitak demi untuk saya pengemaskini diri sendiri dari segi psikologi, sosial keluarga dan kemantapan kareer? atau apa ? mana aku tahu dan siapalah saya untuk menjawap soalan-soalan itu maka cuma usaha sahaja dan yang menentukan itu? entah lah? Saya teruskan perjuangan demi diri, keluarga, dan bangsa negara. yeh yeh yeh sound good and sound great but so far nothing positive happened yet. Tan Tan Tan tan tan and tan. ha ha ha

Fren, Don't worry fren, this is not that 911 which happened to the twin tower but it is some how will be a big day to me only and I joke of it because also fall on 11 Sept 2009, perjuangan hidup Tan and I wish it will be the day and date ok because no point of dragging too long to face the reality in my journey of study. Jangan risau, peristiwa yang elok sahaja akan berlaku kali ini 911, tak kan lah selalu ada sahaja twin tower yang akan menjadi mangsa gut? yeh yeh yeh, I will face it alone with my believe and my workout thru out several years work ok.

Fren, Siap belum? Siap belum? S i a p , tengah persiapan untuk "peperangan" perjuangan hidupku man. Inilah unkapan saya untuk diri saya selama lapan tahun sudah berlalu... Persiapan akhir ini namapak macam senang tapi sebenarnya tak jugak.. Siap macam tak siap dan tak siap macam siap ... bercelarulah pikiran benak saya dibuatnya apalah... Tap apa , I used to tell myself that as long as I get myself ever ready and try my best, because it was my hard work past several years of time man, that's.

Never learn? No... lesson learnt. Never give up ? Yes, never ever till the end of my this life ok Man! Mirror principle is the way of life the Man should go with and go on. Great contributer (Man) is never ever asking for reward and Man work hard toward his optimum in whatever Man is doing and never ever be high hope from others accept the one self ok. Man shoulf enjoy life with the free mind and healthy body and man should building up own strength or own expertise in the involving field and at the end of the day, try to be "the person" in the field if possible for this life ok. Last but not least, never ever give up because there is nothing on the earth that could stop the Man to move forward and for the betterment especially if the man intent to contribute not for the one only but all Man as well in this lovely earth ok. yeh yeh yeh

Fren, Keluhan tinggal keluhan dan rungutan akan tinggal rungutan saja jika tanpa resolusi yeh yeh yeh. namun apa yang saya sedar ialah kecundang lagi agaknya inilah cabaran hidup saya yang tak pernah selesai atau temui yang elok-elok, kecundang lagi.Ha ha ha hi hi hi. Action taken: It definitely would be, well... totally forget about helping hand/hands ... and just workout according to self satisfaction and especially self career part as long as to my optimum that's all. Last but not least, I must satisfied to what I had acheived so far at this particular moment and I have big event and big hurdle to face for coming time and better concentrate on them again in order for me to go on my capacities and capabilities in my life this generation.

Demam ke ? tak? Tekanan darah biasa dan elok saja namun pagi-pagi apabila saya bangkit dari tidur, saya terasa terus berpening dan sakit kepala yang tak menentu dan seterusnya memang muntah menentu jua; lihat berpusing segala- gala benda yang dipandang; baring diri pun tak; berjalan pun tak jadi sebab sendi- sendi badan saya terasa "Sour" ; makan dan minum sikit pun muntah balik dan nak duduk diam pun tak boleh - aiyoh yoh banyak susah hati dan tak senang segala - gala perasaan. Minta tolong kakak ipar hantar ke klinik penal, ubat pening dan ubat sakit kepala saja diberi dan tururt diberi satu suntikan ajaib , nak baring untuk dicucuk jarum pun terasa pusing persekitaran apalah ini dan nasib saya. Saya diberi MC dua hari untuk betul- betul rehatkan diri, kata doktor perubatan panel dan saya pula macam tutup mata saja sebab bila buka mata pusing lagi segala- gala, macam nak mampuslah. Nak minta "manja" orang rumah? Dia dan anak- anak telah balik kampung (jauh) sebelu...

Merdeka, merdeka, merdeka, baharu saja lepas dan hari ini 1-9-09 di mana usia negara kita telah meningkat dan menuju ke 53? ye ke? ha ha ha. Mungkin ya dan mungkin tak, tak tahu? hi hi hi. macam- macam ada... Malaysia berjaya! dan negara yang terunik serta negara yang memang cukup-cukup mewah dengan kekayaan pertanian, teknologi serta human capital dan usaha seterusnya kena kuat, gigih serta bersefahaman semanagat One Malaysia... Pada saya, 1-9-09 ini menunjukkan tanda dan alamat iaitu langkah masa berlalu dan jantung mendebar makin mendekat, langkah demi langkah ke hadapan dan denyutan jantung saya turut makin mendebar dan berbunyi "kuat" jua aiyoh yoh apa macamlah, cari nahas dan cari susah sendiriloh.Inilah keluhan dalaman diri sendiri dan sebenarnya di depan mata saya banyak lagi cabaran yang tak menentu tahu? jadi apa lagi aiyoh ke depan saja.

Fren, Could you try to imagine, what would happen if some one in not in that camp (particular Klik and they are on throne), as the result, whatever so that the fren talks or acted would turned and twist to become very "bad" and then movement that try to "kill" that particular person "like" moving out and in this situation, could u imagine how will be that person survive? and this scenario is common in politic (I think so) but the fren is just an academician only yeh yeh yeh. Tanpa niat jahat inilah yang biasa saya cakap dengan pelajar apabila saya menegur kesilapan yang dilakukan oleh para pelajar saya, niat untuk mendidik dan bukan untuk "membunuh: tapi kalu pihak tertentu yang berniat jahat akan memutarbelit kenyataan itu dan last last menjadi "big issue" so what? Apa manfaat yang boleh diperolehi dengan gaya dan cara "Politiking" ini dalam bidang pelajaran? Yeh yeh yeh. I just membebel saja oop.

Fren, Kena kuat? Kena Kena kena sebab hidup ini senantiasa penuh dengan dugaan, cabaran dan ketaktentuan serta boleh berlaku bila-bila, mana -mana serta pada siapa-siapa saja. Jadi kena kuatkan diri khususnya untuk melangkah, berjalan, mahupun berlari dalam arus kehidupan ini fren, betul. ok? Bila sebut kena kuat, ini membawa konotasi wajib dan harus ya? Adakah this clause suit u? "You ask for it" maka geram tak kalu orang yang rapat dengan kamu kata macam ini, sedangkan kamu bersusaha dengan sambung belajar ini untuk meningkatkan diri dan keluarga kehendaknya kan? ha ha ha. Takpa sabar sabar saja, hidup ini kan harus diteruskan walau apa jadi seketika itu, lupakan saja dan teruskan perjuangan hidup masing-masing ok.

Fren, Self- improvement mean theat a person's would like to workout or put afford to do somethings in order to get self betterment either short and long term of time. It si not big deal because self improve could be just a tiny incidenct that being workout and it worked, that's consider self improvement let with one example: Finishing house or homework with happy ending and getting stronger mind set as well; finishing one assignment on time provided and etc. Self improve in image or emotionally also would be the wonderful improvement and it is not self but the nation too, do you agree on this ? yeh yeh yeh. As far as self-improvement is concerned, if a person has the intention to improve him/herself, this would be good to the whole country man because just time factor, oh ya self-improve like make sure self be consistent to run daily work and maintain what you work.

Fren, SS and SS?; SS versus SS? SS, which one that you want to? atau tinggal last sekali masih SS? yeh yeh yeh. SS would be the one who would like to work without calculative or eyeing for somethings else in what ever they do and it so call unsincere and SS which one that you think suitable in this case? SS would be not recognize by the authority or superior also could be real SS at the end of the day? Well ... Which SS that I am talking about? Which one man? and which one that you think you are? Ha ha ha, let think about it and act about it according to self SS ok?

Hello fren? What's up man? - Kekurangan guru jantina laki-laki-dalam tempoh 20 tahun akan datang? Well... inilah "hot topic" now and saya sebenarnya ialah species ini yang pernah berkhidmat kat sekolah rendah, sekolah menengah dan kang kat Universiti naumn saya masih berjiwa dan berhati sebagai seorang guru ok. Lelaki nak kerja yang mencabar? Mendidik anak orang lain, anak generasi baharu ini dianggap tak mencabar ke? Sorry wrong number unless you are a relax and do not border about ikrar untuk menjadi seorang guru ketika berikrar ok. Menjadi guru tak dapat kemewahan ke? Betul and tak betul jua sebab pada saya ini, kalu orang business mampu berkereta besar, guru tururt berkereta jua tapi mungkin kancil macam saya gut tapi tetap berkaki jentera kan? Rumah orang lain mungkin Bungalo tapi teres pun jadilah asal dapat berteduh sekeluarga kan ok? hi hi hi Mendidik manusia ini besar nikmatnya dan seronok bila lihat anak orang lain berjaya atas "didikan" diri, bu...

What is this fren? I don't know but I hope this is a good number for me Tan ok! Well, good or not good is very subjective and for sure I need to be ever ready for any things or conscience for the best that I could do to myself and my family as well as to the country. Think positive and try to react positively and may the greatest see and give a chance in this life, that's what I could say and react according to personal capabilities and abilities as well. Last but not least, I would be so call nervious let no bussiness because I know myself very well and needed to workout a lot to come and ...

Fren, What is life ? What is life up to your difinition? To me, it is short and challenging. Practically every day, there are somethings happen which needed us to solve, to think and to take them as lessons of our life, don't you think so? Well, to me, life is facing very fundamental problem like: Trust among people, Family problems and basic carreer doubtful and these seldom give me chance to go with peaceful life throughout till this moment of writing this "nonsence" ok. Turbulence; disastrous; unpredictable and discreditable surrounding making up this life! One tiny and poor human being that need to face these "lefe" all the time, can you imagine what type of life is this man?

Rushing? rush and rush will make mistakes ooi. But for the good? Good? what's that so good? Good for future in carer life, once in the whole life, man! Well, worth it man and completed at the end of the day but... the result will be later and later so. fren, nothing that I could say any more and to me this is the only chance that I have after 20 years of my career life in education ok? I just gave a try and let's wait or Tan tan tan for the result. Last but not least, I wish myself good luck and wish them all the best they wanted to be. Bye.

What is Trust? It was defined as firm belief in the honesty, good news,worth, justice,power, etc. of someone or something (longman Dic, 1978). Well, since when you trust me? yeh yeh yeh and based on what you trust someone 0r something? Criteriatical or instinct or what, please? I was building my trust with my students (any one and no gender bias) through their attendance rate for my course and based on behavioural science concerned that when someone showed interest by never and ever missed you thought or class would be the one could be trusted and that's how the trust build, ok. We are facing deep trouble if we did not have any empirically collective measure on someone either trust someone or not trust at all yet there was or were decisions make enforcement, this will make the world upside down or riot when time come, and we can see what is happening around us or globally as well. Sudah lah merepek and merungut sahaja, tak pe biar saya sahaja.

Well, frens, Second time salwageable in one month time? What do you think? Ha ha ha yeh yeh yeh. Life man! This is life and this is experience, good experience for one and I don't think ther is other human being facing this situation but it was still good because salwageable rather than died off right? As far as depending on other sympathize is concerned, salwageable is consider good enough because there might just fail you any time and any way because plenty of ways and means to just make some one in hard life because of interest issue or demand and supply theory involved.

Orang lain sudah jauh melangkah ke depan untuk masa depan mereka masing-masing dan insan kecil ini masih mengeluh akan nasib, nasib dan nasibnya, apalah ini ya? yeh-yeh yeh. Soalnya apa silap dan apa yang akan berlaku jika senantiasa ketinggalan iaitu Tan tan tan atau tunggu tunggu dan tunggu ye he he he sudahlah kira-kira telah berlaku perubahan iaitu terdapat perganjakan selepas menperolehi bantu yang cukup bermakna untuk diri dan ini akan memberi erti hidup untuk langkah menjadi penyelidik yang bertauliah buat masa akan datang gut? Saya cuma nak belajar dan seterusnya menyampai ilmu penyelididikan kepada generasi akan datang itu saja di samping berganjak sedikit self confidence demi keluarga yang berlatar belakang tanpa business minded atau anak penjual ais krim man. Bahkah kata orang berilmu dan bertauliah demi untuk membuat kajian demi kajian kelak, hoprfully sebab belum tentu sebab banyak hurdle di depan lagi ooi.

Fren, On 10-6-09 when I was on my way to meet my chairman of committee, I was hell of thinking whether he wanted to sign my form in order for me to submitt my thesis for the process of examination after 8 yeras journey..... Well, this trip or today is my best day because I managed to get him signed and other two coommittes as well even though I needed to go to Putrajya but done and get back to faculty to get the last sign (dean) then went home. Well, I know that I don't have such wonderful feeling since many years especially the research started, reading is wonderful but time constraint make people crazy ok. Well ...

Fren, pada sayalah sekiranya sesorang itu hanya bulat-bulat serah diri dan bergantung kepada nasibnya sahaja adalah manusia yang lemah dan cukup lemah tapi.... sekiranya telah berusaha semampu dan sekuat yang boleh atas kapasiti dirinya masih berliku-liku hendaknya jalan hidupnya... inilah agaknya nasib, nasib orang itu daripada balasan karma lepas, betul ke? yeh yeh yeh. Saya bukan ulama dan bukan sami tapi manusia biasa yang telah mengalami macam-macam rasa hidup nyata ini saja. I take this blog as the base for me to express and to train or to give self a chance to write some things even common things as well. In fact, I am still in the struggering stage for my PhD journey because most of the problem arise were of extranous variables that actually out of my control and this is so called "Committee system" which I think is the man are the one who make this system worse ... so I am the one as the victim and I am still trying ny best even now I am actually in salwageble stage...

Yahooooo Kancil balik ke tuannya di bandar Klang - Bandar DiRaja Yeh yeh yeh , entah kenapa orang itu mahu pinjam kancil saya untuk sehari? atau Polis Diraja kita hebat dan betul hebat, ini merupakan pujian saya berikan kepada polis diraja kita kerana pada tengahari 2-6-09 pulak sarjan yang incharge kes saya telah talipon saya bahawa kancil saya telah dijumpai dekat ladang kelapa sawit di mana kancil saya ini macam kat hutan atau nak balik kampung saja... Oh ya kancil nak balik hutan tak jadi maka balik ke bandar dengan urusan paper work saya mengeluarkkan kancil dari balai polis, dengan semerta saya telah bersihkan (cuci) serta service sekali dan tambahbaik tempat duduk etc. Urusan insuran dan road tax turut dibuat segera kerana memang telah tamat tempohnya pada 1-6-09 tapi.... Road tax sangkutlah kerana pihak polis belum bersihkan senarai hitam dekat JPJ... bila ye? ?? Walau bagaimanapun , saya sebagai tuan kancil amat happy dan syukur kerana dapat balik kesayangan saya atau ...

Sesudah satu bulan tanpa luangkan masa untuk menulis blog sejak 1-5-09 maka kali ini merupakan cerita yang agak pelik sebab kancil yang kecil dan buruk saya pun pagi-pagi pada pukul 5.55 apabila saya bangkit dari tidur untuk menyiram pokok dan bunga taman kecil rumah kecil saya itu, kancil kecil saya turut "lesap" macam itu saja. Pada ketika itu, makcik jiran depan rumah saya yang biasa saya tegur "good morning" itu datang menuju arah saya dan memberitahu saya bahawa lebih kurang pukul 3.00 pagi 1-6-09 ini dia nampak 3 orang india menaiki motorsikal datang dekat kereta kancil saya dan membuat sesuatu dengan pintu kancil saya lepas itu "lesap" lah kancil kecil dan buruk saya namun saya amat amat sayang padanya sebab sekian lama "dia" telah amat amat berjasa kepada saya sebab pengangkutan "mewah" anak-anak saya dan sayalah. Dengan kadar segera saya talipon polis namun saya dikehendaki lapor pada balai yang terdekat boleh maka saya pinja...

Well fren, I came to the stage of salvage from death or pain, man? What's man and what to do when I am trapped into this stage but I think it positively as long as "jalan" and surviving ok. Fren, I have no choice and time against and always on disadvantages of me and choice is not with me, this is the most terrible situation so what I can say to myself is "I ask for it" only and I am the one to face it until the end of the day as long as I still "hidup" ok. 10 days to salvaging the piece of work and 10 days to try out with brilliant of correction and unknown consequences man ha ha ha this is me and this is th etype of life I had gone through and never ending yet...yeh.

1st of May? What? labour day? What its means to you, individually? or mean nothing and just a holiday? Ooop. Well. for sure it is a family day for all who, so call labour and this is an appreciation to those who work hard for days and contribution to nation GDP or full commitment man! To me as an individual will ask myself did I qualify to celebrate or what? I am a labour or worker in my profession and I work without fail in daily worklife and even to family time as well. So I deserve the day break ok yeh yeh yeh that's you see how terrible I addressed myself and become SS ok yoop yeh.

Is there any one think about the day of one month's end and plan start plan the following month's activities accordingly? Aren't you my fren? Well, end of the month will be the day that to clear all bills of some one or get ready to clear bills for the coming day for next month, right? 1st of May is the labour day and it is off for practically all labour bodies accept certain unavoidable uniform bodies or higher educational institutions as well because of long life learning process. Time again is the main factor for every things and money also play the role in the payment of bills for example ok?

Fren, Last minute, last minute , last minute and last minute yeh yeh yeh berjaya buat atau beres sesuatu kerja yeh yeh yeh namun banyak kesilapan, kejahilan serta kelemahan yang terpapar sehingga merugi diri sendiri khususnya mahupun kawan-kawan lain mahunya. Last minute, last minute dan bodohnya buat kerja beres last minute yeh yeh yeh, banyak conth dan banyak ragam jadi never learn, or lesson learned ... Last minute, last minut and last minute memang kawan rapat dan kawan sejati gua, lu atau siapa bang? yeh yeh yeh. As long as last minute yahooooo. Suka, duka serta risiko mahupuntangguhan dan tanggungan tak pedulilah janji siap yeh yeh yeh... Lasy but not least alamatnya teruskan usaha last minute ok ? ko? or oo? Oh oh ..... yeh yeh yeh.

Well, memang betul katanya bad karma done because the journey is not smooth at all even towards the end of this journey d! Final committees met done and end up that I needed to do admendment a lot and needed time to do so then, I called up the graduate school to see and to know what the actual date to submit the copies for viva later and what happened was yesterday the full professor did not turn up at all, could you see committed our local prof towards his PhD's student and actually he is the one who fix the date ... well... Malaysia Boleh. I almost crack my head and crack my life because of this piece of work and because of this journey as well and now I need to reconsider and rewrite part of this content again, ha ha ha how wonderful is my life?

Fren, Rupa bentuk badan run out of shape ? ! It is mainly 3 factors like: Lifestyle change 280 degree or 360 degree; Food consumption never reduce like before (younger time) or Lacking of balance between nutrient and load of exercises daily, weekly or monthly? ha ha ha. Most of the time we as human being, we know the Why? but when come to plan, practice or maintence the planned programme, we are tendency to "prihatin" to self escaptisme reasons, well very common right? That's Why.... My point of view is about the creation of culture of sports among adult, children and even elderly citizen in order to reduce the expenditure on medical care as over all nationwide. How? It should start with very very individual with just walk around (housing area, garden, stadium or wherever lah) by rutine of 20 minutes single day, (it is a "must") then it is called "prihatin" to self health or shape ok? Then let see ...

Well, is this a good reason to not listen to old man talks or opinion? Yonugters today won't listen so much of old generation opinion because it seem that could not be used to this time but what I want every body to think about is the foundation or fundamental problem would be there for ever and ever if we did not take them seriously to overcome well... You just know to blame others wrongly done and never look at own mistake and own silly mistake but blame other for your own failure then what wil happen man? There won't have any things positively happen because you shut down old man thought and ideas and this is so called generation gap even life partner as well.

Kerja...Kerja ...kerja ini amat mencabar, bukan ke? Bukan kalu dapat selesai on time dan sebaliknya akan berlaku kalu tak on time? Betul ke? entah jawap sendiri ok? Kerja yang inginkan kesempurnaan lagilah mencabar sebab bukan senang-senang dapat kerja dengan sebaik mungkin yang setakat mampu bolehlah ok! Setuju ke? What did I learn when knowledge that concerned through my study in Ph.D?.... ... ... tak habis cerita ok.

As far as time is concerned, we may get or do whatsoever plan/s that been planned provided we need to be seriuosly treat the time that we have appropriately without intentionly waste time of own or others, this is so call unfair to others ok. Well, in 2 and half hours I managed to settled 3 major events that needed me to go about and involved human being or second and third party ok, this make me feel very confident to coming events that I may face after this incident. Thus, I felt tired and I did fele satisfying with what I had tried befor until nowaday.

As far as education is concerned, there is no way, such as racist because knowledges that through the educator should deliver means needed to do so other wise I think you better "quit" or stop become knowldege terrorist or ...? Educator is one like or is a Khalifa who suppose to deliver the right thing and ways and make people to be autonomous self right doing things without forcing especially when human right as well as the educator ethic is concerned. I was teaching for past 21 years already and until today too and in my heart or in my mind I am still very "fresh" or energitic to deliver my knowldege to the next generation who are Multiraces until mono race as well, so as far as education that I love so much, I am so happy and self satisfy on my on going process in lecturing and research into certain field if i got chances especially for education or in my case is sports sciences and sports management, the body of knowldege.l.

To me, every body on earth is beutiful and wonderful because single one as well is unique and they have their own potential or capability in whatsoever skill or field as long as they have cahnce to polish themselves. Survivor skills or soft skills are highly emphasizing in IHEs now and the question is how far and how true that the undergraduates getting those skills? Let say, if the " teacher" also one kind and they themselves were under the inffluent of old system and some more they are not thinker but only as followers so, the next generation that they teach will even getting less and lesser "knowledge" or skills that supposed to gain eventually.See the problem of wrongly interpret the values in education? or as a man ok. Well, for sure that I won't want to be the "Chow kia" teacher because I stick to the education should be for all even equally and the knowledge delivered should bot be "bias" or one sided to certain community only ok!

I am a part of the U but not the stake holder of it! This is why I think I could assessed and evaluated to what I see and what I feel on clearer side and thise won't mean that I did not like it, no, I love it very much because I am part of it ok? and I enjoy so much to what I do or learn here ok? What a wonderful U because every thing provided to the high end and it was from the infrastructures , soft wares and hard wares as well as far as education is concerned nationwide so what else, the U students want, man? Practically every thing on the earth and/ or a man should learn or earn from but yet I feel that the unstatisfied feelings are still around our frens and keep on asking or requiring/requesting some more from a public organization which is the name Malaysian government and which it should taken care of the whole nation people who voted for them!! As the end of the day, story won't end and the human won't progress because too wonderful life ok.

Cabaran itu datang daripada diri sendiri secara dalaman kerana sekiranya apa yang dihadapi oleh seseorang itu kalu tidak "mahu" atau tak tercabar akan naluri orang itu maka pasti tak ada tindakan susulan samada yang positif mahupun yang negatif. Mencabar diri sendiri ini adalah berisiko tinggi sebab "kegagalan" menanti di depan mahupun "kejayaan" akan menanti di depan, mana satu? Sedia mencabar kemampuan diri dengan peluang yang diberi? ha ha ha. Kata orang, itu nasib atau takdir, betulkan? berapa peratus atau tingginya kesahihan dan kebolehpercayaan akan nasib semata- matanya? siapa yang menentukan ..? Tuhan atau ...diri sendiri? Usaha seterusnya amatlah penting dan perlu atau wajib sekiranya ingin mencabar kemampuan diri sendiri, tahu? He he he. Cabaran dari luaran itu kadang kala di luar jangkaan maka dugaan disebut dan pada saya harus berusaha jua sehingga setakat mana kemampuan diri tercabar baru mengatakan takdir jika tak shih.... telan dan terima...

Suatu masa dahulu apabila seseorang yang agar "tak berada" dalam komunitinya sedang berusaha bersungguh- sungguh di mana usahanya adalah daripada titik mula iaitu 0 sehinggalah masa kini orang itu masih dan sedang berusaha tak habis- habis. Sudah lepas selama 46 tahun berusaha namun apa yang nampak secara sahih ialah telah mencapai cita-cita asas namun seterusnya masih tengah menanti ooi. Menanti dengan cukup bersabar dan seterusnya kecapaian orang itu hanya bergantung atas keprihatinan orang lain yang memang di laur kawalan serta di luar kemampuan orang itu ha ha ha. Tak apa tunggu sahaja masa untuk menentukan serta nanti akan sebut suatu masa dahulu lagi ooi.

Masa No masa means what? Ha ha ha bermaksub sampai bila- bila pun macam ni lah. Hi Hi Hi selagi sejenis manusia yang berada dalam alam nyata ok ? faham? entahlah. Masa no masa akan membuat kelunturan manusia percaya kepada yang atas atau "superiority" or ... interpret sendiri, kan pandai manusia ya? hi hi hi hi. Mu tetap mu or moooo.... dan bekerja atas kepercayaan diri yang kukuh sehingga pencen ok. Itulah penutup tirai percakapan atau keluhan diri Kak kak kak

Tak banyak bezelah, nasib seorang pensyarah banyak bergantung kepada "Superiorisme" or ketua in the faculty. Namun subjeks pengajaran lain sikit iaitu anak- anak muda yang gagah, besar serta berfikiran kendiri di mana fakta yang tetap harus disampaikan dengan research based. Walau bagaimanapun saya masih kekal sebagai seorang pendidik yang ingin mendidik generasi baharu demi kedaulatan negara Malaysia, tak lari daripada prinsip Rukunegara serta mengharapkan para didikan saya nanti akan menyumbang balik ilmu serta "soft skills" yang positif kepada anak- anak lain pulak dan bukan kerja setakat penuh syarat ooi. Apa yang membebel ini sudahlah, as long as I fell happy and satisfy ok

Hati ingin jadi cikgu atau guru sejak 80an kerana saya tak kemampuan keluarga nak menghantar saya belajar serta saya terdedah kepada "tabula rasa" para murid sekolah rendah di mana mereka memang suci serta tulus hati, gurulah yang paling "besar" serta paling dihormati, tak berani membantah mahupun... Dengan sebab itu saya memohon dan diterima untuk menjejak langkah ke alam maktab perguruan di mana saya mula menjinak jinak menjadi seorang guru dalam erti kata sebenar untuk mendidik anak- anak bangsa supaya mereka lebih pandai serta lebih berkebolehan daripada diri sendiri tanpa merajuk atau merungut akan wang ringgit iaitu gaji... Namun apa yang kenyataan di diunia nyata ini adalah wajib dan mesti ada sijil yang besar baharu dibayar gaji besar dan dihormati ramai. Di mana ilmu pendidikan dan pengajaran tak dipeduli sangat sehingga suatu ketika guru non graduate sebagai "lembu" dan guru graduate mendapat hasilan usaha mereka yang bukan graduate. Maka saya m...

Rumah ada! Perabot rumah ada! Career ada! Anak ada! Kereta ada! Namun rasa kesejukan? Faham maksud saya? Tak...kan? Zaman muda, zaman segar dan zaman bujang, ingin nak adakan satu rumah, orang rumah, anak-anak tapi payah sebab kurang "mampu" dari segi kewangan atau belum ada career serta belum cukup ilmu lagi namun keinginan itu segar dan jelas kehendak diri. Sekarang dah " mampu" namun rasa kesejukan and it becomes very meaningless dan apa boleh buat, diri membawa diri macam "bujang" jua? faham apa saya maksudkan? Tak... tak apalah. I work very hard to self improve and self satisfy for own abilities and capability in this life , that's but I fell really sad just because what ever I do could not end up nicely or what supoostly on theory like the understanding by "some one" , see and now I feel like a failure and very lonely feel in this life that I need to go on.

As far as self satisfaction is concerned, even one's could not achieve the optimum performance but work sincerely and enthusiasme would be ok and good to one's or others... Sabar, buat kerja yang sendiri minat dan termampu sehinggalah waktu sampai pencen nanti jua merupakan suatu life journey yang elok, kan? Face the reality in the real world in our country. Politician ada agenda masing- masing dan mereka mencorakbentuk generasi baharu dan perkara ini akan berlarutan sehingga bila-bila saja selagi manusia yang keji dan hina ini berada di dunia nyata ini.

What is objective? Purpose of a plan and never influenced by personal feelings or agenda (Longman, Dic 1978). So when you set an objective then the process and the progress would ahead to achieve the objective, right? Baharulah kata berobjektif semasa menjalani aktiviti. Sebaliknya kalau dah rancang dan dah tetap suatu objektif tetapi senang-senang boleh tukar dan buang saja hala tuju so buat apa kita tetapkan objektif, betul? Objektif hidup pelbagai namun end up would be one.... yours and you try very hard to achieve with your own way, right? But could it be change any time as time been? I don't know, ask yourself. Especially in an organization, there are objectives to meet and there are ways to achieve them and must be consistent and if not .... you are fail to plan and you are plan to fail ok.

Ikhlas, keikhlasan ini termasuk dalam intipati integriti seseorang itu, betul? Saya tak tahu sebab apabila ianya dipertikaikan oleh seseorang itu akan besar padahnya kerana setelah sama-sama melalui kemerdekaan negara hampir - hampir 52 tahun dah? Kerja dengan ikhlas, berkawan dengan hati yang ikhlas, berumahtangga dengan menjaga keikhlasan pasangan suami isteri serta anak-anak sekalian, betul? Maka mana yang tak perlu ikhlas, kalau tak ikhlas akan kucr kacir dibuatnya, tak padah ke? Lain kata, pikir masak masak bila seseorang itu ingin menilai orang yang lain di dalam sesuatu organisasi atau sesebuah negara amnya.

Nikmat adalah perasaan hasil sesuatu perubahan atau perkara yang berlaku seboleh- boleh baik punya! Betul? namun bila dapat nikmatnya kenalah khidmat balik atau memberi sedekah atau sebagainya. Betul? Nikmat dan khidmat adalah penentu kepada kehandak dan perasaan seseorang manusia itu dan amalan seseoarang itu pada bila- bila masa saja. Saya sedia berkhidmat dan senantiasa memberi khidmat yang sebaik mungkin apabila proses pengajaran dan pembelajaran berlaku sebab pada saya didik anak generasi baik apa jua bangsanya adalah suatu nikmat dan khidmat mesti seratus peratus baik punya kalau tak akan berdosa tahu? Sudahlah, membebel tak menentu hala, kalau sudah ingin dan bercita- cita menjadi guru sejak muda muda lagi, inilah nikmatnya serta berkhidmat untuk apa jua organisasi yang seseoarng itu berada seperti kata pepatah: "Di mana bumi itu dipijak, di situ lah langit dijunjung" namun kalau boleh berilah peluang sikit untuk bernafas dengan segala sistem yang diujudkan khususn...

Managsa Sistem? Mangsa Politik? atau mangsa manusia? Ada... macam-macamlah! Janji mangsa saja.Sistem adalah tuntutan dan rekaan manusia, betul? Politik dimain-miankan oleh manusia jua, betul? Habis memanglah pokoknya mangsa manusia yang jijik, tamak dan dengki serta entah apa lagi hendak dikatakan insan manusia yang tak berguna ni. Sistem yang baik, ada tapi tak ikut kerana ketuanya manusia. Politik tu penting untuk kepentingan semua lapisan masyarakat tapi kedekut serta tamak maka apa dah jadi? Huru - hara yang tanpa noktah. Siapa yang menjadikan begini rupa? Manusia jua, bukan? Kejayaan sesuatu organisasi tak akan sampai ke mana jika masalah manusia yang hanya mementing diri sendiri serta kroninya berlaku dan mempunyai pandangan dekat setapak saja ok, betul?

What about owning this first dimention's characteristic? So what? As the result, if a graduate owning these characteristic in strong level would be considered that he/she has highly alertness or is ready him/herself to respond and to running the jobs or assignment from their employer when they are there (job market). The graduate's capability according to his/her qualification obtained and even they are ready and willing to take up life long learning as far as courses regarding to their job description or extra work load given and this means that they are capable not only him/herself but further moere they are consider as constributor to the end product of their IPTA and the end of the day that are valued human capital or human resource for the nation. Last but not least, graduates who has this characteristic would be part of one' whole valuable self-employability entity.

What is it? If wee look at it with macroeconomic perspective, it would be quite heavy because as far as macro economic is concerned, it is actually or totally out of control as an individual who might contributed to the nation build and nation peaceful life. So as the result of it, the four dimensions that we mention earlier about 4 dimensions that could measure one's self- employability especially as IPTA graduate. First dimension of the measurement tool is about Emplyment circumstances/learning which comprised awareness of one's on their particular field of employment or self qualifications as well as the potentially self life long leraning process after their fromal education experiences and with the questions like: 1. did the one's graduate fulfilled the basis employment qualification well, either degree or diploma or even higher tertiary qualification needed by their field or jobs; 2. Being employed with full paid and looking for better one or status quo; 3. still in...

Fren, Let's talk about self-employability, what is this Self-employability? There could be thousand of definitions on it because there are few perspective that have slightly different defined on what is Self-employability. Employment is state of being employed (Longman Dic, 1978), where job is concerned. Self- employability is excually depend on the soft skils a person posessed (during their formal eduction experiences) and their self attitude. The way that self-equipped to present to themselves in the job market (Deilottee & Touche,2001). What is it about, in order to be measurement on one's self-emplyoability, it has to be defined in dimension form whereas to be objectivity and researchable. That's why it consisted 4 dimensions as: Employment circumstances/learning; Soft skills in work life; Self-attitude toward responsibility as well as self satisfaction of their formal education experience or 4D in this elaboration.

Fren, After clearifying certain things in mind, feel calm or cool man. I feel good and free and I appriciated what I do in single minute or single moment but.... problems or troubles never ever end man. Day by day there will be plenty of uncertaity things happen around us right? Keinsafan dan kejujuran adalah kunci membawa seseorang ke arah tuju yang positif or ...? Usaha dengan bersungguh- sungguh dan berkawan turut secara jujur dan tak mendesak atau tak mengharap akan lebih lega man. Betul?

Fren, 15109 or Bio Fault Reactive Free now and take me 2 years to get the result and this make me happy day and happy year 2009. But sad to hear of my one friend admitted hospital- En Omar in KL Internal lung bleeding seem and I will visit him soon. I appreciated whatever I have now and still work hard toward life target and I can play my roles appropriately as well and I do feel good and happy ok. Nothing more important than own body and mind health ok my fren, right?

Fren, Time is equally fair with 24 hours for everyone of us and the matter is how we use the 24 hours and what we filling up with? The quality of time spend like: quality time with family? with chiildren? quality in working or office time? or what else? as long as we feel ok or right to do, that's all ok? If we find ourselves always been left out by 24 hours (time) then I think we need to be seriously reconstract our life's framework or activities that we do so far and make sure that we plan till so called we have enough time for what we want to do, right?

Fren, Hair cut means anythings or...? I don't know but I cut it with number 3, yeh yeh yeh.. Pasal lepas geram maka saya gunting rambut saya dengan cukup pendek dan adakah ini bermakna semangat tahun 2009? Ha ha ha ... saja Saya ingin memaklumkan bahawa di mana apa hati di situ ada jalannya maka perlulah berusaha bersungguh - sungguh. Coaching as well, we should coach our athletes with systematic, scientific method in order to produce quality athletes for our country.

fren, Hari jadi, hari lahir atau hari wujud? Ayah 45 and things that solved liked: Arangement of Tadika and orientation days with my love one. 2. Send my love one to brand new building's school and had been addressed as "guru besar' by students over there yeh yeh yeh and he is in year three that school so not so bad. 3. Family stuffs solved but I left out my own stuff which is going to do soon. Jadi tapi tak jadi , wujud tapi mungkin tak lama dan lahir lebih tepat wordf and is this kelahiran yang bermakna setakat ini ? the answer is Yes because of self achievement so far and still work on for coming days and years ok. Frens let's work out according to individual's capacities and abilities ok?

Fren, New year 2009 and January , so what? yeh yeh yeh. New year, new plan(s), new version(s) and new hope(s) or what what else .... no different, fren? Well, new year should have somethings new in mind or heart so that we will have direction to ahead and to work on else where, no direction then no way to go and stay back or stay still or back to square one man yeh yeh yeh. Me? I have new hopes and new directions to work on throughout this new 2009 and January but I started with feeling not well (fever) new new mood? or back dated from 2008? well ... Let's plan and work out and try our best for this new year and whatsoever happen to us so we won't feel bad because without plan ahead right? yeh yeh yeh Happy new year and follow by happy Chinese New Year ok fren.