Kuok Ker

Fren, After the process of interviewing to admit Maktab perguruan Malaysia, I got the letter that send me to train as Physical Education teacher in Maktab Perguruan Temenggong Ibrahim (MPTI), Johor Bahru, Johor. In this maktab, En Aziz Daud as the Ketua Jabatan was my life leader where I learn up what actually self discipline that play the main role in created sucessful in whatsoever we do. He was always in white attire and as early as possible and waited his trainees to be there for the morning class and the firm commands as well as words he make and those words were make sense to every single trainee over the time especially me. "Do what you say" and "don't say it if you can't materialize it ok"- this is the expensive value that I leran from him and respect him until today and I have no doubt on whatsoever sucessful life he could be and wherever he was be too.

Setelah form 5, dan form six adalah zaman atau waktu paling gelap di dalm kehidupan saya dan ketika itu tak ujud seorang pun life leader maka tenggelamlah "Zaman remaja" saya itu. However, my second brother who was penolong kanan in one of the rural area schools who asked me to apply to be a school teacher with maktab train and he was the one who get the application form and guide me to fill in the form and submitted as soon as before the due date of the application and he is actually my life leader this time because of him and his help, I am like right now ok. Thanks a lot brother

Fren, If a thing is going alright or good, pray for it and maintain it for the betterment, am I right? Appreciate whatever we have at present and workout for betterment if ada rezeki, right? I appreciete whatever I have and whatever I had gone through so far and actually it was since I joined in the education line or field or other word, since I menjadi guru sekolah rendah kat ulu-ulu place back to 1985. Now I am in a varsity and I workout for the betterment from what I have with my own afford as well as supportive family members, frens and off course the institution that I work in.

Fren, Probation? Under observation? or what terms that you want to use ok, as long as some one try to change and it is the need of time to let the person to workout the change and definately look into the change by the other party for a period of time. Over night, things won't change as soon as over night unless paradign shift ok so be patience and let see the change over some time ok. I hope things getting better than yesterday and become the best for the rest of life. Well, once the things change to betterment than I think someone could workout triple and try to change the socio status of the family as well and better ending in this journey ok.

Fren, If you see someone is digging his/her own grave beside them, what would you do or could do? Give your helping arm, right? or just looked and let them be? yeh yeh yeh. Well, I have seen one's digging her own grave because of addicted to internet chit chatting and this make her life upside down and at the same time she spoilt her own family affair or silatulrahim and she is ignoring advices even her hubby tried too and the hubby could not even near her "iron heart" so... you see, how sad and how pitty do you think our fren will be and... Exreme case here by just sat down in front of the stupid box and she could go on hours from days and nights- even ignoring family members' needs totally and herself also "ala kadar" and without minimum rest then she fall in sick yet goes on her internet stuff, I would sad this is social sickness of one developing country but I can't deny that this problem mainly come from that particular individual herself ok.

Fren, No matter how is day by day basis things are happening, life goes on and no body could stop what would happened unless you claim yourself as the "God" and to me God must be crazy, right? Modern social sickness such as addicted to facebook or internet interaction no matter how old a person is may cause the whole family upside down and pity to the children who are in such family, may God bless the party so that she could "Lembut hati" and not concentrated on facebook chit chatting only and ignoring the important of communication in a family and values less may happen by day to day base. God, would you please help the person I maen to because the family is in the critical stage and there is no two way communicating for such a long time because no comment topics and one sided assuming the right totally so what...?

Fren, I gained my PhD but I lose "one" important part of my life and maintain 2 with me. Reason is one only- lacking communication or no communication skills and also left too long time - dendam, dengki dan ... tiada peluang untuk patah balik. Again, I would like to ask what is life? man. Tuhan saja yang tahu apa yang telah saya lakukan dan lalui sepanjang masa atau hayat sehingga saat ini ok dan Ianya yang .... entah lah! I still work very hard for another so call life proposal and all over I need to be patient - Sabar and work hard but the other part to me, never ever feel "lembut" lagi because too late for me to propose and let see, let wait and let workout-- what would be the ending -- let stay as now without losing the 2, my God.

Form six was the time that there was one teacher who treated me "very well" and that I learnt one important facts- 1) forgiveness may/sure make our life much easy and happy ok. 2) There is no single person should been scolded "Bodoh" because of this life leader action taken place on that point of time. Recall back- I was entering the form six class and there was Pengajian Am class and what I sat wrong considered rude to that PA teacher because one of my leg was out side the table where I sat so our fren yelled- Hey samseng, come here and why you put your leg out of the table- are u showing that u are samseng - bodoh... then he "looked" at me from my top to bottom and he seem to dig my weakneses or faults. The end of the day, I was a very young man so I stop going to school and I stopped my form six study there. Well, this life leader gave negative impact but yet let me learn somethings out of nothing and I could remember him for life too as what I learn

Fren, I did not mean that beside the life leader that I wrote for my primary school time only was the best teacher and the other teachers were not good no no no ok but the one I write out was the one that gave me huge impact or something like "turning point" in my personal life as far as my own point of view is concerned. Secondary school, there were two life leaders, at first for most, she was my form five form teacher - Mdm Selvaraj because she was the one reminded me that I needed to face SPM examination for the end of the year because I was too crazy and too busy about my school sports day and my sports' houses stuff until I really forgotten about SPM so she was sincerely "sounded" me and I really appreciated her reminder because of her advice on that point of time, I managed to passe my SPM with really last minute preparation (Very hard life and tension life). Well even my result was not good but still could survive into form six (government school). Se